So, I've been trying to fix up a long neglected yard. I spent hours cutting and pruning a bush tree thing back because stray cats would sit under it and I'm trying to attract birds. Anyway, so I chopped the tree bush back and an hour later went out to water and saw Photo 1.
The Cat was sitting there with this look like *the hell you do to my bush woman?*
I snorted with laughter and figured he'd run off like the other strays but no! He meowrled at me then attached himself to my leg. Then he presented his belly! I now have a new friend 😊🐈
He was under my window this morning. Very sweet kitty. I told him not to eat the yard birbs. I think we have an agreement now 🙂
While out there a hummingbird strafed my head and a Black Phoebe sat 5 feet from me just looking around. So lovely the nature! Made me feel like Snow White while she sings to all the animals lol
This was a month of not a lot of reading - or rather, I was reading a lot of different books at the same time and didn't finish any of them LOL
Total - 9
N = N
R = Reread
The Puma Years - Laura Coleman N (this one was fabulous and I absolutely loved it)
On Writing - Stephen King R
The Oracle Travels Light - Camelia Elias R
Dying: A Memoir - Cory Taylor N
The Medicine Bag - Don Jose Ruiz N
Kindling the Native Spirit - Denise Linn R
Advice for Future Corpses - Sallie Tisdale R
Imajica - Clive Barker R
I truly believe that the Earth is a living sentient being. And we are royally fucking her up too. But anyway. I've been studying shamanism to go along with my end of life care/psychopomp way of life and I just read the other night that when you truly give love to the earth, ie by tending to it and helping it to be healthy, she will thank you for your kindness.
So yesterday evening, I'm out back watering and sending happy thoughts so grass will grow again and while I'm meditating on it mindfully and enjoying the way the water smells when it hits the dry earth, I hear crows. So I look up and two fly across the cloudy, overcast, sky right over the sun....
And then. And then. So beautiful...
A rainbow. A circular rainbow literally blossomed out if the clouds as I watched. Coincidence? Maybe. But I believe I got a thank you from the Universe. And this synchronicity kind of felt like a little miracle just for me!
The effect is called a Sun Halo - a refraction/reflection of ice crystals. I have never seen one personally before and to see it bloom while I was looking up at the crows flying by, was just amazing. I have been having more and more of these experiences since starting my Psychopomp studies too. And I am so very grateful.
The photos don't do it justice - I only had my phone but still, I think they are lovely.
So, yesterday the CDC said it's totally fine for fully vaccinated adults to de-mask and ignore the 6 feet rule. *blink*
I get that people reallllly want to go back to the way the world was before Covid, but man. This seems so premature. First, I thought they said even vaccinated people could carry Covid and pass it on. Second, I thought we masked up to keep other people safe from our germs. Third, what about all the variants?
This feels like there is going to be a whole lot of Typhoid Mary's flying about not to mention all the "Karens" who are just going to lie about being fully vaccinated anyway. Sigh.
I also hated the Biden actually mentioned that people should still be nice and kind to anyone wearing a mask. WTF? That just screams MOCK THE MASKED PEOPLE.
I asked my cards what they thought - I actually asked three times because I didn't like the answer LOLOL
First card I got was three of wands: New journeys beginning - evaluate as you go and be aware that you may be at the mercy of external forces (spot on but I didn't like it)
Second card after I didn't like that one LOL : Queen of Swords - Wise governance to accomplish difficult things - take zero bullshit. (Sigh, I see where this is going)
Third card and final one because I hear you: Leaving the known behind. Hope for something better and new. (right, got it)
So, what it comes down to is *I* am not ready to de-mask yet. First as I still have my second jab to go so I won't be fully vaccinated until Mid June. Second, I don't trust most people to be honest because I get that they want to be free again.
I truly hope that cases don't skyrocket in the next month because that would be a good thing. But with the way this has gone - I think prudence would be better -until we see how cases/variants go. But I will continue to wear my mask until I personally feel safe about not wearing one and if anyone gives me hassle, I will punch you (in my mind.)
So, yesterday I went and got my first jab. It was the Pfizer version and so far the only noticeable side-effect is my arm feeling like that masked cow kicked it hard. Last night I could hardly lift my arm up at all but this morning it is better after stretching it. The other not noticeable side-effect is my resting heart-rate is slightly elevated - which means that whatever the vaccine is supposed to be doing is doing it.
I really wasn't sure if I even wanted a vaccine. I have never gotten a flu one and have only had a bad flu two times in my life. But, Covid seems like such a great unknown that I felt it was probably better to just go ahead and get it. Not that I plan to unmask and join the great masses again. I like not getting sick - I mean any sort of sickness - and my inner introvert loves being masked. It's like I am unseen and that makes me happy when I go out.
So, jab number two is in three weeks. Luckily the OC Fairgrounds was really organized and did a great job - I didn't even feel the needle.
Everything is slowly reopening which is cool, but if we could just keep the curb side pick up available, that would be awesome!
N = New
R = Reread
April I think sets a record at 20 books read. A lot were study books for End of Life Care/Psychopomping - I devoured those.
The Dreamers Book of the Dead - Robert Moss N
Mr. Poppers Penguins - The Atwaters R - but read LONG ago a fav childhood book
An Invincible Summer - Mariah Stewart N
Consciousness Continues - Heather Dominguez N
A Voice From Her Past - ML Bullock N
The Sacred Power of Huna - Rima Morrell R
Through the Rabbit Hole /Explore Shamanism - Jan Engels Smith N
The Shamanic Journey Beginners Guide - Gerry Starnes N
Power Animals - Gerry Starnes N
Summer Sisters - Judy Blume R
Dogs and Goddesses - Cruise, Stuart, Rich R
The Elusinian Mysteries a History - Charles River Editors N
The Elusinian Mysteries and Rites - Dudley Wright N
The Meadow Project - Trey Hudson N
The Secret Power of Spirit Animals - Sky Alexander N
Skinwalker Ranch - Conrad Bauer N
A Beginners Guide to the End - BJ Miller and Shoshana Berger N
Near Death Experiences - Conrad Bauer N
The Big Beautiful - Pamela Duncan N
Moon Women - Pamela Duncan R
That is an accurate representation of me last night - I am pretty sure at some point my brain just voluntarily left my body - I hope it comes back soon.
It all started Friday night - Which was going well until a very loud BLUB BLUB BLUB woooosh was heard from the Master bathroom toilet upon the draining of the tub in the hall bathroom. That sound is never good.
But, it was late and eventually the bubbling in the toilet stopped - sort of. This happened before and it was roots in the pipes - roots are never good. I texted our handyman - he said he'd come out Monday.
Saturday started really nicely. I asked for a good day because if I don't do that before going grocery shopping then parking is really bad and my favorite foods are gone. But because I asked, Crow flew by me! Then, I not only got front row parking - but my absolute favorite chicken bowls were plenty and there was no line at check out - and THREE people to bag the groceries! Heaven, I tell you.
Then everything sort of fell apart.
But first, this happened....
Crow came to visit me again. He popped in Friday with a message I was pondering - Crow is cool like that. So, here he is again and that made me smile. Unfortunately, I missed his message which was probably RUN NOW BEFORE THINGS GET MESSY
Upon doing the laundry - the master toilet did the bubble thing again. So, I texted ye olde handyman again and he said, he'd be out Monday. Ok, the Awesome Toilet still worked so ok. No, not ok. Then the toilet just backed up and filled up and I had to get a referral from handy guy for a service that could come OUT NOW.
"Now" makes me laugh now.
Oh, I should mention that when that toilet did that a few years ago and it was roots blah blah, there was this cap thingy in the yard? That I guess was opened? To relieve the back up ? So, it was opened and OMG THE NASTYNESS THAT FLEW OUT OF THAT PIPE WAS DISGUSTING NO NO NO NO NO
*Shit Pond in creation?*
So, I call the number he gave me and it went to a place that couldn't come out til.... MONDAY. What the Bleep is so special about MONDAY? I get it is Saturday but the site said it was 24 EMERGENCY plumbing help. *lies*
So, I just Googled 24 Plumbing help in my area.
There was NOT enough CBD on the planet to make this next part better.
First guys - sounds like they are having a party in the background. Say they will have a tech call me and get out there right away. Wait wait wait -
Second guys because first guys were not calling. These people were nice and set us up to have someone come out in about an hour and sent us a text confirming. Now the wait - I decided to puzzle because while all this is happening...
THE NEXT DOOR NEIGHBORS ARE HAVING THE MOST GADAWFUL FIESTA PARTY WITH KARAOKE AND IT SOUNDED LIKE RICO SUAVE AND THE ENTIRE CAST OF THE THREE AMIGOS WERE IN MY YARD. THEY WERE SO LOUD THEY DROWNED OUT THE OTHER NEIGHBORS EVER CRYING CHILD (ok, that part was actually nice because that child never stops crying)
Half an hour later, 2nd plumber calls back. So, there is a huge flooding emergency and no one is available to come out tonight but can be there bright and early Sunday morning. Well, it isn't MONDAY at least, but really??? Ok, fine, but we are going to try calling around to see if anyone can help us out of the Shit Pond issue.
Call first guys again - oh yes, sorry, yes, someone is coming soon they will call you.
Wait - wait - wait - listen to what sounds like The Greatest American Hero theme song in Spanish being sung by 20 or so fiesta goers. Stares at wall - maybe whimpers a bit.
After waiting another hour - by now it's after 9. Call again - oh no no we are really almost there. Sorry sorry.
At this point, I have created a plan - it is an ugly plan - but my brain left and I hadn't slept the night before and I was ready to start stabbing the neighbors. Confirmed that Plumber Guys 2 were really coming at 9 AM Sunday. Yes. Confirm that while we can use Awesome Toilet it may or may not cause broken dying toilet to bubble up - yes. Well, it's late and bedtime so go if you gotta go. If it fills up we can add to Shit Pond (shudder) and have this dealt with in the morning because it was clear Plumber guys 1 were too busy partying - probably at the neighbors Fiesta - to come out.
It is at this point that we notice a whole lot of activity up the street - a meander showed that the entire STREET was flooded and plumbers were all over the place because there was a THING of unknown provenance and ALL THE PLUMBERS IN THE AREA were there trying to fix it. (But not Plumber Guys 1 - they were just lame and never came out at all)
Turns out Shit Pond was just a wee spot on the map - during the night, SHIT RIVER flowed on by.
At this point I am dehydrated and most likely delirious from said dehydration and lack of sleep and I am just going to keel over while listening to the Greatest Hits in Spanish Karaoke and hope my brain just stays away because at this point I have no use for it.
It's 11 PM.
At midnight the Fiesta suddenly stops - I can hear crickets and .... nothing else. I may have cried a little. Then I ate some crackers and passed out til 9 AM Sunday morning when the voice of Plumber Guy 2 was talking outside.
Turns out it wasn't us at all. It was the main line that cause Shit River - he checked out all the pipes and ran water through and it was all nice and everything was great. Well, except for Shit Pond which needs to be decontaminated now.
I'm probably going to need my brain back for that one. *shudder*
And that - was my Weekend! Let us never speak of it again.
N = New
R = Reread
I did much better in March. I was reading a lot of books at one time last month - so I finished them all this month to total 15
A Touch of Darkness - Scarlett St. Clair N
Death Walkers - David Kowalewski PhD N
The Art of Death Midwifery - Joellyn St. Pierre N
One Foot In Heaven - Heidi Telpner N
Practical Shamanism - Katie Weatherup N
Conscious Dreaming - Robert Moss R
Later - Stephen King N
Mortals Guide To Dying Well - Cindy Kaufman N
The Colorado Kid - Stephen King R
Death Nesting - Anne Marie Keppel N
The Purpose of Life As Revealed by NDE - David Sunfellow N
Farewell: Vital End of Life Questions - Dr Ed Creagan N
Smoke Gets In Your Eyes - Caitlin Doughty R
From Here to Eternity - Caitlin Doughty N
Being Mortal - Atul Gawande N
You can tell I have been doing much studying of the End of Life Care/Psychopomp/Death Doula courses. Fascinating and humbling.
It has been just over a year since we have all been stuck in Pandemic Land - Please pass the Dramamine and I'd like to get off the rides now. It crash landed right before my birthday and ruined a lot to say the least. Is there light in the Covid Tunnel? Perhaps. But I still miss my friends terribly and our yearly lunch gathering to celebrate our awesomeness was postponed again.
BUT! As I went out to get the mail I tripped over several boxes of birthday love and that totally cheered me up!
1: Tom Novy painted this crow for me - after one I had in a dream - Perfect!!
2: Jan Novy gifted me a Titanic book and I LOVE it - goes with my treasure chest of Titanic memorabilia
3: From my friend Audrey - some Harry Potter love, LOTR leather journal that smells divine love and Neil Gaiman love - also a gift card.
4: From my friend Sue - a super soft plush HIPPO blanket, black note paper Hippo Journal and metallic markers and OMG I do not know how she finds the best HIPPO stuff but she wins the prize!
Then today I ventured to the one place I scarfed food at any and all occasions in high school, Naugles. I LOVED Naugles and it did not disappoint. I maybe got TOO much food? Nah, leftovers! But the Taco salad with White Sauce was just how I remembered it. Tastyyyyyyyyy.
I also ventured to Kohls as I have not bought any new clothes since before Covid and after trying Target was highly disappointed in the weird baggy pastel prairie dresses? And way too cropped cropped tops? That is not fashion. Kohl's did not disappoint - got some comfy tee shirts and a few dressier shirts plus some lounging cotton shorts and a pajama set that I plan on turning into lounging shorts. Happy Happy.
And then there was my parents card. My Dad added exactly two words to it and I about fell over laughing so hard because I don't care how old I am or get to be, I will NEVER live down the Green Grapes Incident.
What is the Green Grapes Incident you ask?
Ok, first I was like 6? So not entirely responsible for my actions - also my mom was literally 2 feet away from me cooking something so she could have stopped this at any time but she didn't. So, not all my fault.
I guess I was eating green grapes, (obviously?) in the kitchen while my mom cooked something on the stove. I dunno how many Iate - enough. Then I decided I was thirsty. I LOVED our Sparklett's Water dispenser thingy - remember those? The Sparklett's man would come and give us full bottles and take the empties away? Yeah, anyway - I liked that so I had a cup - I don't think it was a big cup but I had a cup - then another. Then.... another..... (again Mom could have said that was enough water stop now but no.)
To be honest I have no idea how many cups of water I added to the Green Grapes but more than three. Do we see where this is heading?
So, after I am done guzzling water I walk out of the kitchen towards the living room where my Dad is sitting on the sofa. At the end of the hall I stop walking and immediately, with no warning that I am aware of, turn into the Gushing Fire Hose of Green Grapes and Water - (I honestly don't recall feeling sick LOL) I do recall my Dad running full speed at me, grabbing me from behind and lugging me into the bathroom which was luckily RIGHT THERE and setting me in the tub. I think I was done by then and felt fine but was given a stern DO NOT MOVE FROM THE TUB.
Snorttttt. I cannot imagine the horror of that scene even though I had a starring role. And that is why I will never live that down.
Happy Birthday To Me!
I don't often do Magic. Not in the ritual sense anyway. By that I mean, busting out items in a ritualistic manner and sitting down to focus on them. Usually, I am content to let my prayers/hopes/wishes fly out into the Universe and go from there.
BUT! Something was coming up that was really badly timed and incredibly inconvenient and I NEEDED to be sure I wouldn't be needing to attend. So. Magic.
First, let me say that I LOVE me some ritual items. Colored candles and oils and crystals and special paper etc? I just love those things because they are those things. But, here is the important part. They aren't necessary. At. All.
Since I don't do rituals much I don't have all the colors and all the things and once upon a time I thought I had to have those to make magic work. No. You don't.
Magic is concentrated thought. It is visualizing what you want and sending that concentrated thought out into the world. Much like when we were kids and played in our imaginations, that is how this work.
In this ritual, I wanted a candle (for focus) and I happened to have a few white tea candles. A lot of spell casters say you need a specific color for a specific spell. Don't have a green candle for money? Imagine the candle you are holding is Green. Don't have a candle? Imagine you do. That simple, really.
For me, I wrote out my request and folded it up, making sure to be clear on what I needed to happen. Then I folded it up and set it down under a coaster, then set my candle glass on top of it. Then I took my candle and held it while concentrating all my thoughts to what I needed to have happen. When I felt I had charged my candle up, I set my spell/thoughts free and lit the candle. Set it on top of my spell and let it go.
Because I set my intention, twice, once in word and once in thought, I then left it ALONE. Once the candle burned out, I left it all sitting in place until after the time passed of the "event." For me, my belief is once I set my spell out in the world, I don't want to think about it and twist my intention or the spell out of shape. I guess it's like sigil magic to me. Once it's done, I don't want or need to keep thinking about it.
And it worked. I knew it would though, the minute I set it free. I could feel it. I think when we are properly aligned with the Universe and our wish/hope/spell aligns with it as well, it works.
Also, it probably doesn't hurt to have a Grogru with his little hand hovering over the spell either. Extra Jedi magic LOLOL I honestly didn't even realize he was posed like that for a day or so.
Magic is thought /desire made real. And it works.
Not vicious or malicious
Just de-lovely and delicious