I had a very big dream the other morning - someone kept telling me that I had to Remember Who You Are and that it was my last chance to remember. (No pressure dream!)
What was frustrating was that I could almost remember - it was right there, but I couldn't grab it. After thinking on it when I woke up, I pulled some cards and they were pretty spot on as usual.
Card One I asked: Who Am I?
Star - The return of hope and healing
Card Two I asked: Why Am I Here?
Knight of Cups
Journey beyond the known to find my destiny (well that is sort of right on the money LOL)
Also a quest for emotional connection and that there is a danger in not pursuing my dreams - mkay then LOL
Card Three I asked: What did I forget?
Six of Swords
I need to leave behind the known and journey far away - there is no guarantee that what comes next will be any better or have greater promise but to have hope. (Star)
I also love how that card is facing back to the first two cards - as if pointing me in the direction of what I need to remember.
Moving past the known - be brave and have hope - journey into the unknown - there are greater benefits in moving forward than staying stuck. Can't argue with that.
Books Read August
23 Books - Most read prior to that was 20! Woot Of course that means I wasn't doing much else LOL August/Summer heat always makes me very seasonally depressed so books help counter that.
N = New
R = Re-read
Reliquary - Preston & Child R
The Woman Who Breathed Two Worlds - Selina Siak Chin Yoke R
The Ice Limit - Preston & Child R
Cabinet of Curiosities - Preston & Child R
Riptide - Preston & Child R
Shamanic Experience - Kenneth Meadows N
Brimstone - Preston & Child R
Plenty A Memoir - Hannah Howard N
Dance of Death - Preston & Child R
The Book of the Dead - Preston & Child R
The Shining - Stephen King R
The Wheel of Darkness - Preston & Child R
Animal Medicine - Erika Buenaflor N
Fever Dream -Preston & Child R
Two Graves - Preston & Child R
Healing with Shamanism - Jaime Meyer N
The Tarot Shaman - Katz & Goodwin N
White Fire -Preston & Child R
Chakra Healing - Jessica Adams N
Blue Labyrinth - Preston & Child R
Animal Totems & Spirit Animals - Carly Van Heeder N
Crimson Shore - Preston & Child R
You've Been So Lucky Already - Alethea Black R
Books for July
And another slow-ish month. But I was doing a lot of studying on line, so the book count is lower.
N - New
Angelfire East - Terry Brooks R
Urban Shaman - Serge Kahili King N
Darwin's Radio - Greg Bear R
Peony in Love - Lisa See R
Hikertrash Life on the PCT - Erin Miller N
Old Bones - Preston & Child N
The Night Circus - Erin Morgenstern R
Relic - Preston & Child R
I should probably start linking this to a bookseller LOL
Another slow-ish month of me reading several books at once and not finishing many of them
N = New
R = Reread
Station Eleven - Emily St. John Mandel R
Hope - Marc Levy N
Last Wish - Betty Rollin N
House of Leaves - Mark Z. Danielewski R
Life after Life - Raymond Moody N
The Menopause Manifesto - Jen Gunter N
Running with the Demon - Terry Brooks R
A Knight of the Word - Terry Brooks R
(almost got the third one of the trilogy in there but didn't make it LOL)
Awakening to the Spirit World -Shamanic Path of Direct Revelation - Sandra Ingerman and Hank Wesselman N
Mortuary Confidential - Todd Harra and Kenneth McKenzie N
So, I've been trying to fix up a long neglected yard. I spent hours cutting and pruning a bush tree thing back because stray cats would sit under it and I'm trying to attract birds. Anyway, so I chopped the tree bush back and an hour later went out to water and saw Photo 1.
The Cat was sitting there with this look like *the hell you do to my bush woman?*
I snorted with laughter and figured he'd run off like the other strays but no! He meowrled at me then attached himself to my leg. Then he presented his belly! I now have a new friend 😊🐈
He was under my window this morning. Very sweet kitty. I told him not to eat the yard birbs. I think we have an agreement now 🙂
While out there a hummingbird strafed my head and a Black Phoebe sat 5 feet from me just looking around. So lovely the nature! Made me feel like Snow White while she sings to all the animals lol
This was a month of not a lot of reading - or rather, I was reading a lot of different books at the same time and didn't finish any of them LOL
Total - 9
N = N
R = Reread
The Puma Years - Laura Coleman N (this one was fabulous and I absolutely loved it)
On Writing - Stephen King R
The Oracle Travels Light - Camelia Elias R
Dying: A Memoir - Cory Taylor N
The Medicine Bag - Don Jose Ruiz N
Kindling the Native Spirit - Denise Linn R
Advice for Future Corpses - Sallie Tisdale R
Imajica - Clive Barker R
I truly believe that the Earth is a living sentient being. And we are royally fucking her up too. But anyway. I've been studying shamanism to go along with my end of life care/psychopomp way of life and I just read the other night that when you truly give love to the earth, ie by tending to it and helping it to be healthy, she will thank you for your kindness.
So yesterday evening, I'm out back watering and sending happy thoughts so grass will grow again and while I'm meditating on it mindfully and enjoying the way the water smells when it hits the dry earth, I hear crows. So I look up and two fly across the cloudy, overcast, sky right over the sun....
And then. And then. So beautiful...
A rainbow. A circular rainbow literally blossomed out if the clouds as I watched. Coincidence? Maybe. But I believe I got a thank you from the Universe. And this synchronicity kind of felt like a little miracle just for me!
The effect is called a Sun Halo - a refraction/reflection of ice crystals. I have never seen one personally before and to see it bloom while I was looking up at the crows flying by, was just amazing. I have been having more and more of these experiences since starting my Psychopomp studies too. And I am so very grateful.
The photos don't do it justice - I only had my phone but still, I think they are lovely.
So, yesterday the CDC said it's totally fine for fully vaccinated adults to de-mask and ignore the 6 feet rule. *blink*
I get that people reallllly want to go back to the way the world was before Covid, but man. This seems so premature. First, I thought they said even vaccinated people could carry Covid and pass it on. Second, I thought we masked up to keep other people safe from our germs. Third, what about all the variants?
This feels like there is going to be a whole lot of Typhoid Mary's flying about not to mention all the "Karens" who are just going to lie about being fully vaccinated anyway. Sigh.
I also hated the Biden actually mentioned that people should still be nice and kind to anyone wearing a mask. WTF? That just screams MOCK THE MASKED PEOPLE.
I asked my cards what they thought - I actually asked three times because I didn't like the answer LOLOL
First card I got was three of wands: New journeys beginning - evaluate as you go and be aware that you may be at the mercy of external forces (spot on but I didn't like it)
Second card after I didn't like that one LOL : Queen of Swords - Wise governance to accomplish difficult things - take zero bullshit. (Sigh, I see where this is going)
Third card and final one because I hear you: Leaving the known behind. Hope for something better and new. (right, got it)
So, what it comes down to is *I* am not ready to de-mask yet. First as I still have my second jab to go so I won't be fully vaccinated until Mid June. Second, I don't trust most people to be honest because I get that they want to be free again.
I truly hope that cases don't skyrocket in the next month because that would be a good thing. But with the way this has gone - I think prudence would be better -until we see how cases/variants go. But I will continue to wear my mask until I personally feel safe about not wearing one and if anyone gives me hassle, I will punch you (in my mind.)
So, yesterday I went and got my first jab. It was the Pfizer version and so far the only noticeable side-effect is my arm feeling like that masked cow kicked it hard. Last night I could hardly lift my arm up at all but this morning it is better after stretching it. The other not noticeable side-effect is my resting heart-rate is slightly elevated - which means that whatever the vaccine is supposed to be doing is doing it.
I really wasn't sure if I even wanted a vaccine. I have never gotten a flu one and have only had a bad flu two times in my life. But, Covid seems like such a great unknown that I felt it was probably better to just go ahead and get it. Not that I plan to unmask and join the great masses again. I like not getting sick - I mean any sort of sickness - and my inner introvert loves being masked. It's like I am unseen and that makes me happy when I go out.
So, jab number two is in three weeks. Luckily the OC Fairgrounds was really organized and did a great job - I didn't even feel the needle.
Everything is slowly reopening which is cool, but if we could just keep the curb side pick up available, that would be awesome!
N = New
R = Reread
April I think sets a record at 20 books read. A lot were study books for End of Life Care/Psychopomping - I devoured those.
The Dreamers Book of the Dead - Robert Moss N
Mr. Poppers Penguins - The Atwaters R - but read LONG ago a fav childhood book
An Invincible Summer - Mariah Stewart N
Consciousness Continues - Heather Dominguez N
A Voice From Her Past - ML Bullock N
The Sacred Power of Huna - Rima Morrell R
Through the Rabbit Hole /Explore Shamanism - Jan Engels Smith N
The Shamanic Journey Beginners Guide - Gerry Starnes N
Power Animals - Gerry Starnes N
Summer Sisters - Judy Blume R
Dogs and Goddesses - Cruise, Stuart, Rich R
The Elusinian Mysteries a History - Charles River Editors N
The Elusinian Mysteries and Rites - Dudley Wright N
The Meadow Project - Trey Hudson N
The Secret Power of Spirit Animals - Sky Alexander N
Skinwalker Ranch - Conrad Bauer N
A Beginners Guide to the End - BJ Miller and Shoshana Berger N
Near Death Experiences - Conrad Bauer N
The Big Beautiful - Pamela Duncan N
Moon Women - Pamela Duncan R
Not vicious or malicious
Just de-lovely and delicious