Over the weekend I was trying to read as many Amazon Unlimited books as possible before deciding to just keep the subscription LOL But one of the books was Crazy Free, An Epic Spiritual Journey by Melissa Wyld.
It reminded me of the Peaceful Warrior books by Dan Millman and some of the topics she talked about really resonated with me. Things I had known once but forgotten. I ended up filling 20 some pages in a journal with my thoughts and it shifted something inside me.
These things, like energy and vibrations and being connected, they seem both "way out there" and obvious at the same time - it just all made sense again.
Since I struggle the most with anger in my daily commute I was really thinking about how I have no control over that commute except for ME. How I react and how I feel. No matter how annoyed I get, I can't stop the crazy people from being around me but I can stop how annoyed I get. Or try anyway.
I also noticed that when I am tired or just in a really good mood, I tend to have a decent drive. Things go well and I don't get all tense. But when I am in a crappy mood, the drive is worse and ALL THE THINGS annoy me.
Is that my mood perspective or is it my intense mood vibrations drawing like energy to me?
I was thinking about all of that on my drive yesterday and again, something shifted. It felt like everything around me was clear and vivid. Things popped and sparkled and seemed more than real. At first I thought it was just the light of the sun but even when it was cloudy it still looked vibrant. And while there were the usual annoyances I found myself shifting to be not annoyed. Or laughing at it and continuing on my way.
I am working to keep this perspective which I know will be challenging at times but if I can just remember how this feels, I think I can find my way back to it again a lot easier each time.
Not vicious or malicious
Just de-lovely and delicious