My Grandmother she liked to be called, "Mom," came to me in my dream the other night. I don't mean I dreamed of her, I mean she visited me and it has been a long time since she has done that. She died a long time ago but would often come when I needed some sort of help - she was always there to give me a loving boost of energy when I needed it.
So, in my dream she was sitting on the patio and inside the house I could hear festive type noises, I think we were having some sort of celebration lunch. I told her she needed to come in and eat with us and she nodded but stayed seated in a patio chair.
She looked younger, like how I remember her when I was a kid - so pretty and kind. She told me to come here and when I did she took my hands in hers and said, "look at me." When I did, she looked deep into my eyes and told me that she was so proud of me. That I had become such a beautiful woman and that everything I have done was good and again that she loved me and was so proud of me.
I woke up shortly after that and I was just in tears. I am almost at the end of the first part of my INELDA course and have been thinking about how to go forth into the death doula world and if I was doing the right things and she came at the perfect time to tell me that I was indeed doing the right things.
Thanks Mom - I love you.
It's been awhile since I've really updated here and much has happened.
Let me introduce myself for anyone popping by.
I am Christina and I am a magpie of all the things. I love reading, writing and any kind of creative art. I walk the Shamanic Path (The Four Winds Society) and am a Psychopomp which led into my taking EOL classes with INELDA so that I can do both sides of the EOL journey with people.
I just finished Day 3 of the INELDA course and am so humbled and honored to be in a class of amazing instructors and students. The course is so perfectly tailored from start to finish and I have learned so much already - mostly that I still have much to learn ;)
The classes have taken what I thought of as "surface work," and instead taking me into a deep dive down under the surface to explore in greater depth many topics and beliefs. The people I have been paired with in small groups have been the exact people I have needed to learn from at the perfect time and that sort of synchronicity tells me I am precisely where I need to be right now.
While I do plan on being a full spectrum end of life care (death) doula, I plan on specializing in Grief work - especially with families of suicide or sudden/unexpected deaths. With that in mind I will be going back to school - I found a program of sociology/counseling that will enable me to widen my scope in helping people. I also want to be sure everyone has their Advance Planning and Advanced Directives paper work in order.
I am still processing so much of the class and my brain is full of ideas bursting all over the place but right now I need to focus on some "Learning at Home" work - which is Vigil Planning. Specifically my own Vigil and how I would like my last days to death to look like.
Call me twisted but I am grinning ear to ear while thinking about how I want everything to be - Death doesn't need to be all sadness - this inevitable failure of being will happen to us all. Sometimes humor and a light heart can help take us where we need to be. The next great adventure awaits - just, you know, not quite yet ;)
Books Read Total 4
I know I know but I have been studying for me INELDA course which just started so book for fun - well all books are fun, but non study material has taken a hit.
Furiously Happy - Jenny Lawson N and I love her books
The Passage - Justin Cronin R
The Twelve - Justin Cronin R
The City of Mirrors - Justin Cronin R
I am not where my stuff is at the moment so my books have been limited - but the Passage books are one of my favorite series.
Not vicious or malicious
Just de-lovely and delicious