So, yeah, cigarettes?  It was an odd snippet of a dream and I only wrote it down because I am out of practice of writing them down (they all seem so blah while I have been stuck inside for so long) and because it was so odd.

So, in this one, I was at my parents house and my dad came in and I asked him if he needed anything at the store. He said Doral cigarettes, menthol, the kind with the green stripe.

First I was annoyed that he needed anything as I really didn't want to go to the store for anything and then WTF? No one in my family smokes.  I asked him if he had enough and he didn't so I went to the store.

My brother and I are now at the checkout counter and I ask if I can get them there or if I have to go to the "cigarette desk?"  They say I have to go there and I am annoyed again because the only thing I really came to get were the dang cigarettes. I honestly have no idea if there was anything else in my cart as I don't recall shopping at all. So, I send my brother to get the smokes and I pay the clerk with a check, only it was written on the back of an old ratty business sized envelope with tears in it so I had to tape bits of it together.

Then I woke up.  I had another dream after about making out with Rob Lowe which was much more satisfying but a noise woke me up and I couldn't finish it LOLOL

It's memorial day. Just thought I'd add that in there. I am trying to get back into the blog habit to keep track of days and life and hours before they all fly by.

Photo is of a lunar eclipse awhile ago. I won't see the one tonight. Also, it's totally unrelated to my post, but it is quite timely as far as Full Moons and Lunar Eclipses.

So, I had this long dream, I woke up several times but it continued after I fell back asleep. In it I was aware of someone I only know online and only as a IG follow at that. So, it was odd that that person was even in my dreams.  At first as only a background character but one I was supposed to interact with and at some point did - I'm always amused when there is kissing in a dream, when that kissing is done by a stranger.  

 If you are kissed by a stranger, then your dream is one of self-discovery. You need to get more acquainted with some aspect of yourself.

Kissing can also indicate wish fulfillment, fantasy, or even the want of close conversation with that person. Kissing / desire are often mixed up in dreams and can be associated as well with talking/conversation.

And in most cases, all the various peoples in your dreams are aspects of yourself, although at times they do represent real people, you can usually tell.

My thoughts though are this: If you dream, lucidly, or even think deeply about another person, wouldn't those thoughts create a wave that would eventually touch that person?  I think it was Jung, or someone similar who posited that when you are thinking of someone, you will often receive a letter or phone call from that very person because your thoughts touched them and reminded them of you. Even if they didn't realize it. It echoed until they heard it.

In the case of someone you don't speak to - how would you even know? I guess, if they were brave enough, they could contact you in some way but in today's freaked out world of hate and accusation, I suspect they would be too wary to do so. Sad really.

Dreams like this are hard to shake too, because they felt so vivid, that upon waking up, it feels as though all of those things really happened. It's rather intimate isn't it? To feel that you have some sort of knowledge about another, even if only in a dream form.

I think this is why I have studied dreams so much. They are quite magical and it is a vast landscape to travel in.

Another part of my dream had me looking at old vintage ads that had been embroidered and I though, I CAN DO THAT, and so I can.  At least there is one part of my dream that is doable LOL

I was in the middle of a nice dream when I was woken up by really rude people outside. This isn't surprising as most everyone around here is rude and unaware that other people might not want to listen to them. But even so, screaming obscenities like that for all to hear is just plain trashy.

The bits of the dream I caught were good though. It started out with me in a mountain-y area, forests and trees and earth - but I am in a parking lot in my car, trying to back it out of the space but I am having trouble seeing the direction indicator so I can't see the D for drive or the R for reverse and the entire time the car is slowly drifting backward in the lot. I am not worried about hitting another car - in these types of dreams I never am - I just go LOL
Finally I get it in Drive and move upward out of the lot, up a small hill type thing, only now I am no longer driving a car, I am riding a bike (this also happens a lot in my dreams) and the hill is sort of a combination of blacktop, dirt and old lump lava that has a pretty rainbow sheen to it.

There is a guy walking next to me, dressed like a hiker, and he is also wearing a rainbow of colors - he starts asking me things like How am I doing and What will I do now and I think I say something like I am going to get settled and find a job somewhere.... 

By this time the path has landed me/us in this sort of fairy tale looking place, like trees that are buildings holding shops and things - touristy looking area and I think I can get a job in one of the tree shops and in one of them is someone I know from Instagram LOL  She says she hasn't had a customer or seen a person in awhile and the guy nods and I think that is ok, I can still work there, it will be something for the moment.

Then I wake up to the screamers - thanks trashy idiots.

The entire dream I feel good, strong, confident in my ability to do whatever it is I need to do. Nothing worries or bothers me at all. 

I like this part - I went to my IG friends page and her post is an oracle card called Heavenly Witch - which has a description : at night when senses withdraw, you may perceive truths in your dreams. The facts revealed will help you make your dreams come true.

I like that kind of synchronicity. 

You can see the dream cards I pulled for this dream in the photo above. I can give a brief overview of them if anyone wants to keep reading.

Rainbow: (I kept seeing rainbow colors on things)
Connection, hope, luck, bridges between heaven and earth - a transition that is about to unfold

Earth: (a lot of brown earth, nature area)
Feminine, regeneration, unconscious - Think Empress in tarot. This is about creative pursuits, regeneration in myself, time to come back to earth and manifest these things.

Green: (lots of green plants and such)
Nature, renewal, hope - growth.

Journey: (it felt like I was in the middle/end of one)
Calling. truth, quest, self discovery - exploring the unfamiliar - passages from stages of life. Evolution

Animus: (I felt the hiker guy was this archetype)
Action, intellect, consciousness - think Emperor Tarot card

Mountain: ( I was in a mountain-y area)
Transcendence, challenge, pilgrimage for self knowledge or spiritual enlightenment. 

Trees: (Lots of them)
Life, regeneration, evolution

Forest: (see lots of trees LOL)
Mystery, sanctuary - sacred space - contemplation - Jung thought the fear of a forest was a fear of the unknown in ourselves. I was not afraid. I was safe and knew all was well. Which says I feel at peace with myself.

The other bits that stuck out was the car and bike -
Car - transportation - they take you places. Movement of the car shows you where you are in life. At first I am stuck, in reverse, symbolizing being stuck and going the wrong way in life. Eventually I got the car in the direction I wanted to go!
Only it turned into a BIKE

Bike - This is a lot about balance - you need to stay balanced to ride one. Also, its about your own self power - you need to pedal it, you put in the work. This is also about movement and action - how you feel riding it, reflects your waking world feelings.


So this very much reflects where I am in life right now - but its nice to see the synchronicity.

Wow.  That was me upon waking up from several series of dreams this morning.  The past 2 days has seen a tremendous upsurge in dream imagery and I have been able to not only remember the last dream I have upon waking, but the dreams prior as well.

Upon first glance, they almost seem violent/sad/lonely but then you really get into the layers and find they are powerful, empowering and generally kick ass.  When one decides, in dreams, to stop letting things steam roll one, to join with the Shadow, Animus and Self, when subconscious and unconscious merges with Ego.... WOW.

This is the very first time I can remember using "magic," in my dreams. Most of dreams up til now have just been me being average and doing average things. Last night though, after dealing with trials and negative situations in the dream zone, I decided NO MORE. And duuuude, magic happens.

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That, was actually an image in my dream - that sort of power I guess.  Wave a hand, door slams shut kind of thing.  It was awesome and amusing, mostly because I knew I was dreaming, it was kind of lucid, kind of letting it go it's own way to see what happened. 

There were some funny scenes, mostly taking place in a mall type setting during the xmas holidays - malls are good settings. Full of choices, things you want to add to your life. Even the little scenes within the big scenes were full of tidbits of symbolism that made me laugh. Dreams never stick symbols randomly, they all tend to mean something... it's remembering what they were that can be tough.

One of my favorite lines that I said was, "I've got weaving skills"  which actually cracked me up enough to slightly wake up before going back into the dream. Another tidbit was seeing a woman carrying the magazine, "Where Women Create," in her basket.  I am like, "OMG can you be more obvious and AM I PAYING ATTENTION?"

Deciding to own your power, to become the hunter, not the hunted, is a huge thing.  And once I quelled all the negatives in my way?  I had a lunch date with me, myself, and I, in the form of me, a female and a male, also, me... and we all sat at a table and the scene was happy and filled with love.

I have never had anything like this last series of dreams and it felt very awesome and empowering. And it gave me a lot of direction.  Dreams are good that way, if you listen to them.

Last night I slept badly. Just insomnia kicking my butt again. Anyway, when I finally did get under, I had one of those dreams that makes you feel freaked out while it is happening and then makes you wonder what your sub/super concious might be telling you.

I was sitting in a backyard somewhere in a beautiful garden setting at night. I was looking up through this gorgeous old tree and seeing the stars twinkle, when I saw a shooting star. Then another and another and was very happy that I was getting to see a very active meteor shower!  They started going faster and then there was this huge clump of stars that started swirling around, looking kinda like the trail Tinkerbell would leave when she flew. 

This swirl of stars got bigger and twinklier and I was just so in awe and happy. Then they started getting lower and lower and lower and my awe turned to freak out as this "star" thing landed in the tree I was under.

Then things started falling on me and pecking me and they were little bird things? Things with beaks. It didn't hurt but was more annoying. The worst was looking down and seeing a small snake curled up in a tight coil, on my stomach - and I was standing, so it was stuck there or defying gravity.

I was pretty much in that silent terror of OMG what do I do now and wondering how to peel this snake off me without getting bit and I could hear/feel those pecking things and then I woke up.

Now bird attacks in dreams can mean being pulled in too many directions.  That is kinda true but I didn't think it was a big thing.  The shooting stars, self-fulfillment. 
Snakes: I hate snakes. HATE snakes. Yet I often dream of them when I am bothered by something I may need to face.  In this instance, it was tiny and green - which tells me my fears are unwarranted and whatever is bothering me isn't going to be a huge issue.  Well. Ok then.

To add to that is a nice bit of connection. I earlier had a dream about the Strength Tarot card and have been looking at that more closely and today I saw a version of the strength card with a snake on it.

I love it when the Universe sends me things like this. Puzzles puzzles to keep me on my feet LOL I could do without the Universe laughing maniacally at my "plans" for a day off and then watch me regroup and try to stay mindful when it all goes pear shaped!  Then I get annoyed at Universe and make surly remarks under my breath at it until it goes and gives me an oracle spread to say, "ok, I messed with your plans but not really, they just weren't meant to happen that way but try to get some rest and maybe read a bit and everything will be ok."

(full translation here)

So, on March 15 of this year I had this same dream.  Well, I actually don't remember the dream itself, same as the first time. But again, I woke up frantic to find something around me.  I was grasping my blanket and trying to get my Fitbit to light up so I could see better.   I did know that whatever I was looking for, I needed to find so I could wake up and go to work on time?   I was totally panicked and it was terrible.  Finally, I realized I had everything, again, and was able to go back to sleep but OH MY GAWD what is up with these dreams?

I have been doing dream interpretations for years and since this isn't exactly a dream I remember, it's more the waking up mid dream searching, that is driving me nuts.

​What, exactly, am I searching for here?

I figured I would post this in case someone meanders in and might have some ideas :)

Dream Diary:
Must have been deeeeply asleep - dreaming about something I needed that was in my comforter?  I kept feeling around the edges, frantic - trying to find something? At some point I went from dreaming to awake, still feeling around my comforter for whatever it was I dream needed. I even got my phone to light up under my pillows and the floor, stressing to find whatever I needed.  Slowly came to realize I had been dreaming and I had everything I needed.  4 AM OMG - I was actually very panicked - I tend to dream like that when I am tired and with the daylight savings time recently inflicted on me, I am really tired!

​* Everly Brothers - My earworm today - you are welcome