I thought it was the whole "everything is in retrograde so nothing is working," situation that was making me feel so un-inclined to do anything.
But that ended on the 19th and I am still in one of those "meh," moods.
I have things I want to do: Learning more about embroidery and doing arty stuff in general. As well as learning my new tarot deck, but when I sit down to do those things, I just... sit.
I wondered what the cards would say and then decided I wasn't inclined to use those either which is really weird for me. When I did try to pull some cards they were all discordant and not making a lot of sense... kind of like my brain currently.
But then I remembered that is has happened before. I hit this pocket of slow time where I need to stop struggling and thinking I should do this or that, and just sit in that pocket of time and let it be.
It feels counter productive and almost like I am wasting time but I have learned that it's like pulling the Hermit card, it is a very much needed time where I let everything settle. Kind of like letting a computer run a virus check. Everything falls into place when I am floating there.
So here I float. I know this will end. I will wake up one morning and feel energized and ready to tackle anything that comes my way because I took this time to let myself float. But not "down here." That's Pennywise's realm and I am so not going there.
Not vicious or malicious
Just de-lovely and delicious