Yowza - I chose the perfect moment to look out the window just now. Lightning struck close by and charred my retinas - then thunder shook the entire house - I kinda dig it, kind of not - as the last bit of rain we had really waterlogged the roof and made the lights do weird things. I don't like it when the electricals do weird things. It makes me edgy.
I hate being edgy.
I spent most of yesterday warding off panic attacks over things I cannot control because they are not under my ownership.
I am not good when I am not in control.
Control issues? Why yes, that's me.
But I have also learned that when my instinct kicks in and tries to get my attention, via anxiety of that level - I need to listen. I trust it implicitly.
So, I listed the ways I can do things to if not fix the situation, then at least be as prepared as possible for things and did those things! I may not feel 100% better but I am as prepared as I can be and that helps a lot.
Now I really need to stop looking out the window as that is the 2nd time lightning gave me lasix today. It's kinda cool though, so I will let it be. (and cross fingers that the electricals don't do anything weird)
Not vicious or malicious
Just de-lovely and delicious