In one of my favorite books, The Book of Life, by Deborah Harkness, The Goddess warns Diana Bishop that she must give up something if she wants her help. Diana spends a lot of time worrying that someone she loves will be taken from her and it isn't until the end that it hits her. She has to give up her FEAR. Fear of what she will become if she embraces all that she truly is and not just what she wants to be.
I got a lot of change-y cards in my tarot draws today - especially the Death card. It was appropriate in that is is a new season, HAPPY Ostara and Spring Equinox all! Plus it's a full moon of epic super proportions as well. A good time to see what needs changing in life.
I always got that the Death card meant that, change/letting go - but it didn't hit me until today - that change also means giving up fear. Fear of what comes next. Instead of trying to grasp at keeping things as they are or keeping all the things in my grasp - I just need to let go of that stubborn Aries need to control ALL THE THINGS.
That one is a hard one for me but I can see that it shows up enough that this is what I need to work on. I am terrible and letting control go. Makes me very twitchy. There is a fine line between letting go of that control and slipping into apathy. Truly trusting yourself and the universe to have your back is TOUGH. But I am working on it. One death grip at a time.
Not vicious or malicious
Just de-lovely and delicious