Having another dream that led to answers I wasn't even aware I needed made me very happy today. I am fizzing with energy again and oddly, joy LOL Not that I am not happy often, but this kind of joy is unusual for me first thing in the AM - when I turned my PC on, that was the screen photo - appropriate LOL Made me laugh loudly!
Anway, the dream.
Recurring type dreams annoy me when I can't figure out WHY I am having them. This one was driving me nuts - old BF and I are back together and I am always looking for clothes I have left behind so I can shower/change? Drives me insane to keep having it and then today, I figured it out. Bolt out of the blue LOL
I don't think I would have but because of my studying the psychopomp/shamanistic/dream world, I have been reading a lot of using time in the Other world/Spirit world - to do a soul retrieval for someone. I never thought it would be ME though. Not a full soul, but a bit, something I think I lost along the way.
I actually thought that after I had moved on from a relationship, that I moved on. Totally - end of sentence. I had no feelings - emotionally - that I was aware of, tying me to that time or person so having ex dreams can be frustrating until you figure out why.
In this case though, after being open to the idea of cords still attaching me to a time or person - I looked more deeply into this time and realized that after we broke up, or really, even when we had still been together - I was starting to become VERY INTROVERTED*.
*side note - I wasn't always introverted. I was never super extroverted but I never minded a lot of people or crowds or what have you. The thought of Going Out was never an anxiety producing thought until about this time.
Interesting yes? I think so.
Now I am looking further into this time so I can get to the nitty gritty of what I may have lost of myself (the clothes I am looking for in the dream) Because I want that bit back. If cutting the cord doesn't work in regular meditation or deep visualization, then I have a goal for my first few trips into the Shamanic state. This excites me very much!
Not vicious or malicious
Just de-lovely and delicious