A Walk Through the Thoth Tarot
Nine of Wands
Urk. This is just... unpleasant. Crowley says this is "agony of the mind." As balanced as Yesod gives on the middle column of the Tree of Life, Mars just takes over and we are left with this mess. Our minds are just filled with the mean reds here and Crowley says, "Consciousness has fallen into a realm unenlightened by reason. This is the world of the unconscious primitive instincts, of the psychopath, the fanatic."
Despair, cruelty, malice, loss and misery. While these all sound horrible, we need to realize we are in the realm of the mind and it likes analytic thinking. Often to the point of over-analysing everything. And when we do this, we often see truths we would rather ignore or hope will go away. The mind won't sugar coat this and when it happens we either stick our heads in the sand or we face the truth, as uncomfortable as that may be.
My Tarot Card Practice. I have been studying Tarot for over 20 years now and am still learning new things daily.